Who what why where when?

Lucky Luck

2012-01-10T07:05:00.000-08:00

If u look at all the gifts , that i've given her (Hand made)

U'ld've <-! thought that shes lucky to have me. for all the heart and effort i'ld willingly put in to each gift.
but

i think , i'm luckier ..

Love is everything pleasant ,
And to be able to enjoy such immense pleasure of LLLLing

can i be luckier?

NIA

2011-01-29T07:25:00.000-08:00

i am NIAN! Nian is a constant variable , unlike me , subjected to emotions . Daily trivialities and uncertainties . Nian is how i ought to be and how i want myself to be . So let my name be nian . and to be called upon as nian shall serve as my reminder to KICKASS!

I AM NIAN!

As that , i shall be

- * AWESOME

- *Asskicking

- UNPARALLELED QUALITIES

- SAINTLY-est MORALES.

remember . THEY;re all subjective to my interpretation

2010-11-07T01:00:00.000-07:00

Shes really pushing the limits.

Always taken for granted never once appreciated .

Lets see how much more i can tolerate such nonsense .

Fingers crossed , hopes for much regrets . only then i know its worth it

2010-10-23T23:46:00.000-07:00

Irregularities brings forth unplanned possibilities .
I'm just not smart enough for there is too many things to contemplate about .

fuck , i wanna live alone .

Cause relative to you relative to me , i'm relatively relative to the assumptions of the society with regards to our definition of relationships .

Rules of life :2

2010-07-25T21:21:00.000-07:00

Rules of reasoning.

What is true and what is not.

So we come about a fact. or a "truth"

and how do we know that, wat is true to us is the truth?

say if we adopt a reductionist way of thinking.

We break it down, taking a *truth* and relating to the very truth* that is it based upon.

and so on. until we reach the truth of the truths.

And then we ask

What is left to verify the truth of the truth so that the whole of the truth is true?

This reductionist approach brings us to relativism.

Say if we argue that, the fact is the fact of truth. and the truth is based on the fact and the fact is true.

How did we come upon the fact that supports the fact of the truth?

A Fact is the opinions of the public

and opinions are relative to an individual's subjective deductions.

and what is deducing?

the process of deducing is diluted by our opinions, past present experiences and also very much diluted by our grey morals.

and then what the hell is true about the truth?

Such debates can be never ending. and hence

Hugo suggest that, there ought to be a priori reasoning which are presupposed in our commonsense.(COMMON sense?) which are not established through deductions.

With that he suggested

Lonergan's 4 transcendal precepts

Which is to

be attentive

be intelligent(hypothesize)

be reasonable(picks the utmost true , instead of one that gratifies oneself)

be responsible(stay true to the reasoning)

And with that i shall APPLY the 4 precepts w regards to morals and interpersonal relationships(which is very very grey)

rules of life :1

2010-06-10T09:27:00.000-07:00

Bertrand says

"Fallacy - to think inadequately at all times instead of adequately at times."

How am i supposed to ignore native callings of my emotional quarters and focus more on my reasoning , big picture . frontal cortex , wise decisions?

If i can , if only i can make properly reasoned decisions all the time. i'll be a perfect being.

However that would take away the fun of living huh.

because it is never logical to do crazy , pea inducing stuff.

And with this.

i need balance.

2010-06-10T09:20:00.001-07:00

Rules for life.

Without rules , there will be no plans.

To be without plans , is to live with fictitious goals

Get my life sorted, get my rules instated .

I'll start with ,

“The six mistakes of Man”:Cicero’s Six Mistakes of Man.

The delusion that personal gain is made by crushing others.
The tendency to worry about things that cannot be changed or corrected.
Insisting that a thing is impossible because we cannot accomplish it.
Refusing to set aside trivial preferences.
Neglecting development and refinement of the mind, and not acquiring the habit of reading and studying.
Attempting to compel others to believe and live as we do.

Now lets start living with a plan

STUBBORN

2010-05-04T12:50:00.001-07:00

I DONT THINK I'M STUBBORN

i just...

believe in what i believe better then what i believe others believe in me

NON-sense, No sense, NONSENSE

2010-05-04T12:23:00.000-07:00

HA! Sense?

Lets study our language.

Non-sense? No sense?

So NON sense is the opposite of common sense?

I believe that i'm not common

Hence my posts are No sense.

I wish to believe that i think, nothing like that of the COMMON

hence , my sense , of sense . Is NONSENSE

"so to be unique , u've to be nonsensical"

And funny thing is , Society . Hierarchy.

When, you're lousy and unique/nonsensical . You're nonsense.

When you're good and unique /nonsensical . You're super sense

COCO

MAN, iwannalosemysenseofcommonsense.

i wanna be happy!

NON-SENSE

2010-05-04T11:57:00.000-07:00

Makes sense?

What make sense and what doesnt?

And what does COMMON sense mean?

I know one thing for sure , and that is. Sense is society defined.

And if we ever thought , what does COMMON sense mean?
Common , in a sense that, common is shared.
Shared by the society that we live in.

And i've always asked myself, where does this COMMON , Society defined sense come from?

Take from example, sense.
It doesnt make sense if i am a chinese to run over a pile of flaming stones.
Religious sense.

There are many of the COMMON sense that are common within us.

AND THE PROBLEM IS

The COMMON sense, bestowed upon us as virtues in our toddler days . Sticks as values .
And such values are barriers that are restricting us to achieve nirvana , or eternal happiness.

say , a bmx rider. BOY that guy is fucking awesome.
Backflip tailwhips and all, but hey. To common folk with common sense, hes anything BUT successful.

Say a banker, Yes , someone who slogs hard, makes money .
Sense tells me that he is successful.

But hey, i'm sure the bmx rider is as hardworking, if not HARDER working then the banker.
And why is he not successful?

Successful?
In what?
Life or Within the society,

"WHY DO WE OFTEN PEG OUR SUCCESS TO THAT OF THE SOCIETY AND NOT TO OUR LIVES?"

How does the society matter to us , before or after our lives

And once again. What is success in life?
Happiness?
And what is preventing that happiness? (or in another sense , the ability and freedom to do whatever they like)

Our , understanding of SENSE.
How we understand our sense, i believe .
Is bestowed upon us during the earlier days of our childhood.

We've been told, and programmed . When young to believe that shit is dirty , sex is evil.
Have we ever not been told such things , will we abstain from enjoying the latter?

However i believe such virtues is good, in a sense . Like religion keeps us away from harm.

AIYO , i fucking lazy to type already.

CONCLUSION.

SENSE SEPERATES US ALL,
SENSE is like a form of POISON. BLESSED BY OUR PARENTS.
SO THAT WE'LL suffer that same monotonous , unsatisfying life that they had.

I wish that one day, i'll put down all my forms of common sense. And enjoy what little life i've got. 80 years aint long.
I've got to live. In a plan , out of my plan.

I NEED A PLAN

2010-02-08T10:38:00.000-08:00

WE NEED A PLAN. I NEED A PLAN.

WHY?

I will really start living after i have a plan.

At the age of 20. i am ENLIGHTENED ahahahaha. YES

i mean seriously , what have i been doing? and what do i know about my life?

I've been living for 20 years, nono . Infact I've only been following a plan.

A plan that is set out by the very society i live in

I dont even exist at all.

I'm just an Ant in a trail of ants

i dont live

i dont exist

i am insignificant

i am one amongst the sea of many.

To me , to you am i just a relationship. AND that relationship is defined once again by our binding society. our society is my god. i am relative to you that is relative to a relationship defined by a culmulative , central power which is in otherwords the mean of our combined expectation. AKA SOCIETY. FUG MY LIFE.

You see , that is how sad my life was.

people buy sports cars, big houses .. WHY?

Do they actually think they can prove their existence with such *VALUABLE* possessions?

In a bigger picture, They dont.

They still do not exist , they're still one of the many.

It is just that , they've reached a new stage in the plan. The plan that binds everyone from birth.

The plan of our society.

every kid is born. With a plan

Every kid is born ,

to start walking

to start learning

to start schoolings

to start relationships

to start a career

to start a family

to start earning money

to start affording expensive items

and then, we're all well integrated into the plan.

then we start to grow old

we start to age

we start to fail, our memories and our bodies.

and fuck! i ask myself when do i start living?

living , not in the sense where we live our existence.

i wanna live my life, and what the fuck is my life?

I've been well into the plan that i forgot to see anything and everything beyond the binding plan of my life/society.

and then

at the end of the day, we're just part of a cycle.

An invisible plan that binds us all.

A plan where we play little to no-part at all. A plan that we're neither the M or the X or the C we play no part in affecting the Outcome (Y).

Then.. We just vanish

after 3 generations .

WHO IS NG.SHENG.NIAN?

OUR EXISTENCE ARE MEANINGLESS

We're NOT the BEST

Human selection, Humans, reproduce

through the selection of the best

If we're not the best, our off springs will not be the best

And then . why do we exist?

I WANT TO BE THE BEST

I want to be above the plan and to be above the plan i have to have a plan

AND HENCE

I NEED A PLAN.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i love my crap

oh yea, i really am going to live after poly life.

You'll see.

i need to survive before i can live! YESSA!

Goal.

2009-11-22T20:59:00.000-08:00

Seems like, i'm luckily unlucky to have a dad like mine.
whose shoes are so big , that if i ever wanted to be seen as successful.
I'ld have to fill his shoes first.

The benchmark is pretty damn high .

Living up to expectations is not enough, but ... damn.
I cant see the expectations.

No matter how well i do, i'll still be ... as expected. Cause my dad is greater then the greats.
Hes got an interesting life story to boast. I don't.

I've got motivation. but i'm still a bum.
I'm nothing , more then his shadow.

Being nice.

2009-07-22T11:46:00.000-07:00

Everyone wants to be nice.

but some of us tries too hard to be nice.

We think, how come some people.

Pulls of being-nice so easily?
Folks nation wide reveres him/her as the almighty nice one. everyone praises him/her for being nice.

but here you are , trying so hard to be nice.
being nice to whom you think are a bunch of ingrates. Taking your nice deeds for granted.

How fucking annoying is that?

Then...

Why are we TRYING to be nice?

Why do we find it hard to turn down requests from our friends?
Requests of NICE* deeds from you.

Do we genuinely want to help or do we help cause we find it hard to turn them down?

In otherwords,

Are you a nice person? Or are you asked to be a nice person?

(and you find it hard to turn down a chance for you to be who you want/ought to be)

Its annoying how we all preach that , if we're genuinely nice. We do it out of goodwill, we do not expect reciprocation.
And yet we curse and swear at those ingrates.

Why? because . we're nice cause we're asked to be.

Appreciation is vital. To us , is the basic hygiene of being nice.

but being nice, we're doing it for someother's benefits isnt it?

To all of us we tries to be nice, and be nice only when we're asked to be.
Its good that we try.
But dont allow one or two ingrates* to stop you from being nice to others who appreciate.
Because they are deserving.

And why do we TRY-ERs

expect so much?
Cause we TRY-ers , blow up every nice thing we do.
We think of it as a self-sacrificing deed, when being nice is to overlook oneself and work for the benefit of others.

we fail to be genuinely nice and that is to overlook oneself.

So lets all try to be nice, cause you want to.

22nd July

2009-07-21T10:37:00.000-07:00

An unlikely NO.
Damn depressing.

Come on . let it be a YES.that is what i wish to hear, on JULY 22nd .

With regards to the thing i really really want.

come on man. help me pray for me.

Frog

2009-07-21T10:23:00.000-07:00

Pictures of my frog.

You guys know that. my frog will be rid of the green.
going back to GREY. BORING GREY

Why?
It wll be given to my mom.
(my next ride will only come in september)

I miss my greeen coloured car

Credit princess Gabriella for the superb pictures

Inactivity.

2009-07-21T10:18:00.001-07:00

Back and blogging.
Schools been shiet. very fucking boring. project works. gah.

Been awhile back, 2 months to be close to exact.
Thanks everyone for the 3x birthday surprise man!

12 midnight, candles by my carpark. FUCKING AWESOME MAN!
6-7pm the next day, people @ the JU-JU restaurant. THANKS MAN!
Later at night 10pm-12am - MORE PEOPLE at some random carpark behind.
DAMN NICE DAMN FAIRY-TALE. They lit the whole carpark with candles (a route with candles into the stairwell where i fed my pores cheesecake. haha . THANKS MAN!

FOLKS behind the surprise (THANKS MANY MANY)

hao

mun

bock

Sherwin

clement

terry

limin

weijin

Dudes who wished me happy birthday . SMS or MSN

suern

junjie

sujun

julius

alvin

waileong

tzetian

timwee

alicia

joe liu

meisheng

heng see meng(drift shifu)

alvin tham

justice

Jeremy Bmx

Theron

Gabriel Princess

Kwok siang

devon

how chun

Havi!

People who came for the surprises/event

hao

mun

bock

Sherwin

clement

terry

limin

weijin

Sujun

tzetian

Nigel

tuan jiaw

James

weiliang

Yiang hai

joe liu

waileong

ian

mitcher

darren

chiumun

hoihin

People who wished me on facebook

Raied

Joel Zee

Douglas

Walton

Gabriel - Drifter

Alvin tan - Drifter

Szuhui

Malcom Bs

Michelle BS

Stella BS!

NEATO

Thanks alot man. most eventful birthday ever

Self-worth

2009-07-21T10:10:00.000-07:00

Importance , to the most important person in the world i'm unimportant as he is important to me for i'm unimportantImportance , to the most important person in the world i'm unimportant as he is important to me for i'm unimportant

So how do you intepret? - by 2.

she is important because i'm unimportant to her(her standpoint)

I'm unimportant in my own opinion therefore she is important to me.

Society moulds people not to sek self-fuilfilment but to seek acceptance.

The measure of importance of the people around you. General public's opinions are imporant to yuo for yuo are unimportant

Society moulds people not to seek self-fulfilment bu to seek acceptance.

The measure of importance of the people around you. General public opinions are important to you for you are unimportant.

Why do people around me conforms their priorities to the unimportant people aruond them . Unimportant to their future/well-being.

How can my cow , put herself before others, to understand the true importance of her important self and important health.

Motivation- Find a role model
Mental restructure - Priorities based on her interest and not expectation of others.

Most importantly, she has to understand her own importance in the society.

Cow ! Change for the better.

I can offer no more then mental reassurance. but that is if i'm of a significant importance.

Blogshop!

2009-04-20T09:07:00.000-07:00

The best blog shop ever!

http://spreegalleria.livejournal.com/

VISIT NOW!

Comes complete with prompt customer service.
Excellent shop owner. unbelievably polite.

GOGOGO!

GET IT NOW!

My babies

2009-04-12T09:38:00.000-07:00

Meet my babies.
The frog and the cow.

Sexiest part of my cow = the eyes.

Fucking pretty tail-lights

Skyline GT -500bhp (ok big numbers. but i dont dare to push em)

Pretty long car. i love the side profile

Look goooood fromt he back. Black rims will be much better

Yello!

Say hi to THEFROG

The WOOHOOs done

seemingly seemless

2009-04-08T12:00:00.000-07:00

Oh man!
Say if i hadn't take the initiative to do anything.
There wouldn't be anything done at all.

We'll all just wait, cause the sheeps needs to be herded.

and its always me being the dog.

So when will the mammals call?*(me first)

hahaha . anyways.
"God be thanked, the meanest of his creatures......"

Do i be bothered about not being bothered
Or bothered about being bothered about not being bothered
Or bothered about not being bothered about not seeming bothered when bothered

Pitfalls of happiness.(mine)
To think inadequately at all times, instead of thinking adequately at times.

Heres a super fucking awesome poem by walt whitman(a repost in my blog)

I think I could turn and live with animals,
they are so placid and self-contained,
I stand and look at them long and long.
They do not sweat and whine about their condition,
They do not lie awake in the dark and weep for their sins,
They do not make me sick discussing their duty to god,
Not one is dissatisfied, not one is demented with the mania of owning things,
Not one kneels to another, nor to its kind that lived thousands of years ago,
Not one is respectable or unhappy over the whole earth.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hxcjTaTXJcI

i miss shanghai!

2009-04-08T11:48:00.000-07:00

Wooo hoooooo!!

China!
Pretty fuckkkkjiinnnggg aweessoommeee....

One of the MOREexcitingTWOweeks of my Super deeee duper EXCITING LIFE!!

hahhaha

This trip = SUPER FUCKKINGG IMPROMPTU MAN!
Got the tickets on friday
Off i go on monday!!

Made some fast reservations online @ hotels.com

Fucking neat .

It was a super long trip.

So lemme cut the crap.

Blog on the more interesting happenings
AND let the pictures do the rest of the talking

Day 1 : We arrived at midnight. All forms of transport (apart from the Rip off cabs , ceased operations)
Gabriel almost got us scammed , he asked for directions . Some sly looking china man came , took his paper. and offered to ferry us and gabriel followed.

GABRA!

Hell , i took the paper back from the unwilling- to - return - sly - looking china man.

Went to a nearby 1 night stay hotel
(Really shitty shit enviroment. disGARSting.)

Fucking lucky trip

Day 2 : Took public transport towards our hostel.
FUCKING LONG FUCKING TIRING.
2bags and a bike in another big bag.

Setting up the bikes

Hell man.

Bumped into local riders.

LUCKY OR NOT. Our hostel is 2 streets away from the ONLY bmx shop in CHINA!

Virgin manual in shanghai

We bumped into the owner.
Exchanged contacts.
He hooked us up with local riders. Who then brought us to Shop for cheaps tees, to be used for riding.

Riding along!

I met my cow (limin) there as well.

Then we went to sight see afters

ZOMG!

unglam cow

DAY 3

First day of SMP. fucking exciting. Ramps were huge , ginormous. BIG AS FUCK!
Fucking fun!

Called up the local riders.
Arranged for a street ride at night.

BUMPED INTO MORE RIDERS!

AH DAMN LONG LA.

Bloody fuckking long post. lets keep it short.
heres the highlights

We hung out with the local riders.

We had BBQ at the backyard of one of the riders.
We went to shop,eat

Played with fire crackers.
Zhao cab

Shot locals with gabriels slingshot (using ball bearings)
Almost got into a brawl with locals

Go karts.
Went to ikea / Zoo with my cow.

And now, pictures talk

Tailwhip!
AGAIN

MAN! EXCITING!

Shanghai = Colourful! + They've got MALLS EVERYWHERE!

Random picture. Hello dustbin!

How often do i take pictures?
heres a picture with my cow. Cow says - my smile like natural sia. i like young like 16.(like only)

Good picture, Why? cause i look taller.

See i act cute sia. (my ass, more like i'm covering my mouth - then princess had to take a shot)

Fireworks! That canister over there is knee height, the explosion is well over 2 metres tall man!

Somebody is very cute WORXZ.

And this guy, is alot cuter. Somehow

Check out that random lady's expression

getting home

Ah ! Shanghai! PRETTY! - and colourful

MY ASS, A TOP TEH SMP BOWL~!

Got my picture draw, original drawing with naomi

Its GINORMOUS!

With some of the riders we met, we rode with a lot more at night. pretty coooool crew

We lay wasted atop the vert ramps
THE SHEER SIZE OF THE BOWL, COMPARE ME TO THE BOWL
What?
Wah lau , see i wear slim fit jeans man . so not nianish
The road towards SMP. (a short cut actually) to get to this road
we had to cross a platform. 25 cm wide, 3 metres long.
The platform, laid over a dead river.
Fucking smelly man. Best of all , the dead river was right beside a fish market.
Shit was thrown there everyday,
Makes the long ride there alittle more interesting huh

To think without thinking

2009-04-05T23:14:00.000-07:00

Man, i've gotta start thinking about how important life is.

Guilt ridden,
I nearly caused the death of my family ( in a heavier tone)

Quarrelled with my mother over minor issues.
Which caused my dad to be angry.

And he fainted while driving....

God damnit.
If anything happened. Its all my fucking fault
but thank god.
hes alright....

I'm 19, to think. i'm far from mature.
To put myself in his position.
All the responsibilities i have to carry.
My fat/stubby shoulders are unable to uphold.

I've to think before i allow my imbecile side to fuss.
cannot man.

Let me restructure my priorities.
I'm never the utmost important.

Cause .. I dont have the rights to get angry.

To think without thinking.
Blink.

How is it possible that, i can be so irresponsible?

I've been driving recklessly.
letting my ego take the better of me.

To be responsible for others,
If i fuck up and die.
My dad will probably be so upset and die.

How will my little sister feel?

How can i get so annoyed by ah beng evos who box me
And speed with them?

Annoying thing is.
I've got 5 other friends in my car.

I cant toy with their lives.
i dont have the rights to.

Drive safe.

And with the advent of a new ride.
My skyline.

I'll only learn in GP.

Thanks..

WELCOME BACK!

2009-03-14T04:35:00.000-07:00

THE FROG IS BACK!
SEXY CUSTOM BUMPER. ONE AND ONLY IN SG(ANYWHERE ELSE IN THE PLANET)

LUMMA KIT SEXY. GAPING MOUTH. GRUNTING LIKE A BIG FAT TOAD I MEAN FROG!

WOOO. FUCK OF FLIES

THE FROG IS BACK!

THE FROG!!!!

Awesome

2009-03-13T13:20:00.000-07:00

YARGGHH!! MY CAR IS BACK ITS BACK ITS BACK ITS BACK!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHA YESS!!! i'll upload the pics next time.
FUCKING SEXY!

I LOVE MY NEW RIDE

AND I'M GOING TO CHINA!

Fucked up

2009-03-12T03:29:00.000-07:00

Somehow it feels like its all going wrong
ONCE AGAIN.

i must not lose again

I dont know why, but wheres the enthusiasm and excitement?
Going going fading . gone

Details

2009-03-10T11:39:00.000-07:00

Being happy,
I was contented.

I had a picture.
Really really nice picture.

i'm just pure happy. i'm happy with the frame , i should be happy with the details. that is my assumption.

Learn to be observant
So i can be very sincere.
I'm happy with the picture.
but do i know how to appreciate that picture?

Being happy, being contented.
I fail to notice the details
That makes that picture nice.

Because i'm already contented.

Take the initiative to observe the details.
Examine the fine points.
Then i can fully appreciate the picture

I dont preach reductionism cause i'm not a biologist/ mechanic . but i can practise so i can appreciate.

i wanna learn how to be observant.
Then i can understand.
and demostrate sincerity

So i can know the picture. more then i know its frame.

2009-03-10T00:37:00.000-07:00

When hygiene needs is your only source of motivation.

Give -
Recieve -

Be deprived of the latter and lack mental assurance.
Assurance, whereby action is the foundation.

Talking dreams, chasing clouds.
I dont want to be at the losing end.

So lets be abit selfish.
cause you cannot really be sure can you?

2009-03-01T06:20:00.000-08:00

Progression

2009-02-24T15:05:00.000-08:00

HA! look at me man!!! what the fuck!!!

I 'm pretty sure i'm 14 in that picture but i look like i'm fucking 10!
Some even said i look like eight!
HA! others came up to me and said , HEY I SPOT YOUR RV UNIFORM(RV = my primary school)

WHATTTTTTT! INCASE YOU CANT IDENTIFY ME!. I;m on the bottom left corner. on the floor by the teacher's feet

AND IN 1 YEARS TIME. i look so fucking different!
Must be puberty! hahahahaha check top left.

HAHAHAHA

2009-02-23T12:20:00.001-08:00

All that i've ever wanted.

I've got nothing that i've ever wanted.
but somehow. it all turns out better then i ever wanted.

ELABORATED HOLIDAY PLANS

2009-02-22T15:55:00.000-08:00

Yes! 8am in the morning. i'm wide awake! not because i woke up early. but its because. i've gone beyond the point of exhaustion . now i am in a state of trance. neither tired nor energetic.

Anyways.i'm blogging about
MY HOLIDAY RESOLUTIONS!

Coming 6 weeks.i'm going to make full use of it.

When i've all the time in the world to myself. i tend to waste them.
My buddies friends. having attachment.

Plenty of time to catch up with myself. with the nian in 2006.

hahaha

SO WHAT MUST I DO THIS COMING HOLIDAYS!

STAY HEALTHY yes. (SLEEP EARLY)

I want to read all the books that i've bought.
Brush up my english.(its poo in comparison to me in 06)
Go and run
(Not that i wanna keep fit, but i figured. my little efforts now can help me avoid that 3 months extra NS)
Brush up on my card magic, and other manipulations
( i wanna learn to impress, myself )
I want to ride well. ride more bikes.
Level up in BMX riding, i dont one to be just another biker. i wanna be NIAN!
I wanna play my bass well. Play it with feel and funk.
I wanna learn how to play Wedding bells on my guitar for my lepak buddy
Catch up on the world news
Learn some dessert dishes from my sister (DAMN GOOD I TELL YOU)

8 items, thats a lot! but

Brief outlines of my plans for the two weeks,

Wake up at 10am.(not too early not too late)
Lazy around at home ,surf the net, procrastinate , waste time , read the papers , watch some bloomberg, check cbot for reports on agriculture trading(gotta learn how things works to pwn my dad in future)

Rot around till 1pm.
Get my bicycle out to ride. or i can go practise some bass / read books but chances are i'll go ride bikes.

Ride till about 5 or 6
Come back home , see if my buddies made any plans for the night. if not
I'll do something like practise cards / play bass or read some books again
(i've got a shit load of bertrand , some heideggers and alot of other junk to read)

have my dinner at home or outside.
pending on the time i get home.

10pm-11pm (thats if i get home within that time range)
I'll call tzetian to run.
Short run

Ends around 12.
Come home slack.
Surf the net , play bass / cards/ read

sleep around 2.

MAN THAT WILL BE NICE!

I CAN DO THIS FOR LIFE.
AND THE OCCASIONAL OUTINGS>

THAT WILL BE AWESOME!
NO SCHOOL. NO EXAMS.
JUST ME AND MY SOLITARY PURSUITS.

Dont make assumptions. ask me if you wanna know. if not. think nothing about it

2009-02-21T14:42:00.001-08:00

STM hits.
now i make my personal notes. in my blog.

i saw, two faces. two persons.
amongst the many that people creates.
i've created her shell as a dream.

being ez and pa. she is what we percieve to be.
our perception is that of a dream.

and now,
something else better comes along.
open my eyes, speak my mind.
burst the bubble. and realise
shes dead.

and now i have a friend. in place.
a friend who i know has no (P&C)
think about it.

two persons. in one body. one is make believe.
two personalities (whats the name ah? schrezo aiy adunno how to spell)
one make believe.
one that is nothing.

have i found god?

mixed feelings

2009-02-21T02:06:00.000-08:00

Green european cars. FUCKING SEXY!

being emo was gay.
being emo detaches you from all things random and spontaneous in life.

being emo made me fear rejection even more.
fearing rejection caused me to avoid new experiments.

then eventually my life , became a routine.
doing things i thought i ought to do daily.
doing it not out of passion and liking.
but because of the fear of something new.
something new which can cause rejection.

SO GAY!

Green european cars!. This maybe how my 335i will turn out. but wait. it will look much nicer! hahahaha

anyways.
i really miss portsdown.
i really miss riding all day. long hot afternoons. trying laughing playing.
i really miss staying up all night practising magic.
i really miss , jamming in a band, doing gigs, learning new songs and keeping time.
i really miss playing with 4C
i miss everything good that has happened .

but!

More sexy green cars

everything that i miss.
they're not foreign they're far from distant.
theres everything i can do about it
everything i can do for it.
and ha!

my life is going to be great. far better then better. its going to be fuckin superb.

hi guys. i'm nian.

Aiyo why cant i post pictures

2009-02-19T10:24:00.001-08:00

wah so imba. so preettyy!

AHHH! fuck. insomnia !

BOLLOCKS.

Here's whats fucking annoying.
6am , i go to bed.(say i lie on the bed, trying to fall asleep)
6am , i hit the sack. aboard my little space , 4 legs a pillow and some sheets. i thought i was off to meet my idols.

and then. 11am.
Bloodshot eyes. fuck. Frustration.

i waited in the spaceship. but why cant we assume our itinerary
yes.

Aya's got bloodshot eye's too! (ha fuck i sound like a gay shit fanboy)

I cant fucking sleep. 6am-11am. i was rolling on the bed, trying so fucking hard to sleep.

In the 5 hours, i could've rode bikes. i could've studied abit for my HRM.
Yes its 3 am now. HRM, i'm only at chapter 6/12

Amazing thing is. i've got 5 hours to learn things that i was supposed to learn in 6 months.
i learn now. i cant study . cause i've yet to learn.

Fuck!

arrgghhh

Look at those eyes man. so damn nice. so damn damn damn nice

AND.

IF YOUR BIKE SPOILS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. AND You're MILES AWAY FROM HOME.
WHO DO YOU CALL?

NIAN!

YES and NIAN WILL LEAVE HIS COMFY NEST, GET OUT INTO HIS MOM'S CAR DRIVE OVER AND PICK YOU UP!
HA!

boy i hate being nice. hahahahahah

(Y)(Y)!

(The following shit has no link to any of those shit mentioned above :D)
Importance of being unimportant works not for everyone.
Be a joker live temporary.

You seek acceptance. i seek importance.

Frustrating , easy going yuo can be . and not come of as no.1
Balance!

Learn from the green princess. to know all and yet be known nothing about.
Then you'll have the competitive edge. to make people work for you.

and yet be all so, enigmatic to the extend that. no NEGATIVE/INSULTING words in the dictionary is fit for you.

How many bad things Can you say about a guy you do not know?
even if you do. you are the one being fickle.

See beneath that ceramic smiling face.

Adios amigos.

And one more annoying thing.

( and this is also not related to any of the things mentioned/ nope theron not you . chill bro ride safe HA!)

say you're nice to someone all the time.
and they fucking take it for granted.
be normal for once and
sarcasm hits.
They think you're unwilling to help.

fuck off.

To MY BFFFFFFFFFF(DAMN GAY SIA BFF LIKE SOME HIMBO)

2009-02-16T11:01:00.001-08:00

Nyah!

Pretty damn gay i was.

Receive what i give and open up , in turn you'll give and then it will all be fine.
Drink from my cup, then plow my fields. together we'll have rice

Invest in nothing unknowing.

I jumped into the pond, now its your turn .
Pick me up. and we'll laugh along.

Its funny.
We know yet we still act to achieve the unwanted.
Hypocritical huh?

Apply the power of suggestion.
Play god.

Create that something out of nothing and that something will be everything when you've nothing.

out of that vortex of negativity .
Embrace and enjoy it.

....

ha! doubt any of you will understand what i mean.
Speak my lingo. to my XZXCZXCZXCZCZCZVZXCZXCZX (awesome!)

Stay happy man!
Dont think too much.

"Think adequately at times but not inadequately at all times"- bertrand.

Deserving

2009-02-16T10:58:00.001-08:00

She is queer,
She is unique as shes queer (in a good way)

Shes the easiest person to talk to as she is the easiest person to listen to

Shes always around to listen to you crap as much as you're full of crap

I love hanging out with my friend as much as she loves to shop and talk.

NYAHAHAHA

Rejoice for my super awesome lepak friend.

Of whom i think i owe a great deal to.

SINCERE!

On the quick dial. lets go talk and drive!

This deserves not to be locked away

This post is for

2009-02-06T11:29:00.000-08:00

Apologies if i got too carried away being playful, when my curiosity overrides ethics and polite-ness , priorities.
( Paiseh, its 3.36 am, cant think of appropriate vocabulary to describe what i meant)

TO MY BFFFFF.

Check out the right column of my BLOG!

I am
A chicken
A Wolf
A Fish
A Dog
A Convict
A Dinosaur
A turtle

But for now, i'm 90% chicken.

HA! add on to my list will you? LOL Basket.

I dedicate this whole post to you!

Dont feel inferior man
Dont be discontented with yourself.

Who the fuck says that you've no personality and character?
Who says your personality and character is not unique?

I dont think you've got no personality.
I think you've the most unique character ever

Since nobody says that you've no personality or a dull character.
And i'm sure i'm not a nobody ,
Cause if i'm a nobody , then nobody thinks
"I dont think you've got no personality. I think you've the most unique character ever"

But if i'm somebody then when something thinks
"I dont think you've got no personality. I think you've the most unique character ever"

That means there cant be nobody who thinks that you've no personality or a dull character

Come on,
Since its not possible for *Nobody(Thats if i'm a nobody) to think that you've got no personality or a dull character.

and at least somebody
"I dont think you've got no personality. I think you've the most unique character ever"

How can you possibly have no personality or a dull character?

come on give yourself a break.

Enjoy it while we can.
I'm sure i'm not nobody ahahaha cause i'm a have fat body and your BFFF

This whole post is fucking yours.
Thank you

AND I HOPE THAT THE 2nd of MARCH WILLL NEVER COME!

Power

2009-02-03T11:24:00.000-08:00

One of the many pictures taken in korea. got alot man! Real beauty huh it really snowed. Looks like a post card picture. but sheng gan is in the picture, proves i didnt rip!

The importance of negotiating power.

I FUCKING UNDERSTAND.(and experienced)

The application of ideas, the ability to spread your ideology has negotiating power as one of its essential ingredient.

To have negotiating power

You have to respected
You have to be given a shit when talked to

Say, A street bum comes up to you and tell you , you suck.
Chances are , you wont give a fucking shit.

Otherwise.

It that was the girl you like, YOU SUCK! - she says.
You will think about it, consider it.
Accept it believe it.
AND THEN it will come true!

SELF-FULFILLING PROPHECY!

And there you have,
You've grasped the power of suggestion.
The ability to suggest and fulfil.

But you need the negotiating power.

Best korea pic IMO(cause everyone looks fucking happy)

EH BFFFFF dont get the wrong idea when you read the shit below!!

But anyways,

i understand why is the green princess so good.
She is so favourable , everyone likes her..

Nobody can tell me a single bad thing about her , neither can i spot one
Why?

she
stays passive and is easy going = heaps of friends with good things to say

People dont know her well enough to note her bad points
but people like her cause shes easy going and passive

Great formula!

Turn hordes on you, over step the line.
The ability to.
It really is playing with fire.

Deep seated intelligence

2009-01-30T11:55:00.001-08:00

Atoms are dumb ,
How are we smart as masses?

See what i should see

2009-01-30T11:44:00.000-08:00

And now , i finally see.
All that is infront of me.
And it really is .

fucking beautiful

Seen the horizon. You think its beautiful.
Chasing clouds

Talking dreams.

About time we stopped to smell the flowers.

I really am lucky.
And i really do think that i'm lucky.

I hope it stays and i hope it lasts.
Cause there can be no one better.
No one could possibly be better

Cause.. The top of the world is big enough for only one person.

and she has my throne

Sorry super friend

2009-01-22T04:59:00.000-08:00

I shall dedicate this post to saying

To my SUPER LEPAK BUDDY.

SORRY MA'AM!

I did something super fucking nasty to her!

I yanked her off the back of my car. and she fell from the boot to concrete hard floor

HERE TO THERE MAN!

Ass to ass. ka plonk. OUCH!

SORRY MA'AM

This post is yours

and a little bit of aya.

MISS HER?

My ride my pride. my baby as of date. with mods +1

2009-01-21T10:46:00.000-08:00

Hey guys! meet my ride. greet my pride. say hello to my 335i!

Muahahhaha.
Conceived 112108.
21st november 08.

My 335i convertible! Sexay.
306Bhp inline-6 Bi-turbo sexiness.
Alright . less auto-lingo. and more layman shit.

HA!

Man. i love my car.

Looks alittle like an old man's weekend convertible.
So! (also maybe because i was getting quite annoyed by people think that i'm trashing my dad's car)

I caught the modification virus!
!ha!

Dumped a full 26k into the modifications of my car.

DAMN NICE MAN!.
Visible changes to my car *The rims*

heres some pictures of my first round of mods.

(installed the existing parts, the rest were on pre-order)

First round of mods

Arqray Ti Exhaust
Breyton Race GTS rims 19"
Toyo tires
Cross Strut Bar
H&R anti roll bars

SEXY LA!

2009-01-20T12:04:00.001-08:00

To everyone that i like.
Its me! NIAN! :D

To everyone that likes me
Its me! NIAN! :D

My joker framework

How much happier can i get?

2009-01-19T08:51:00.000-08:00

AH HA! who wants to read about my life anyways?

Before i start chanting about my all so interesting life. and the myriad of colour events that took place end of last year , start of this year.

I SHALL SHARE A FUCKING INTERESTING THOUGHT PROVOKING PARAGRAPH i read in this book. damn damn damn damn damn goood.

Remember the matrix? Waking up , alternate universe.
Mind and physical matter. Fake. Nothing but your conscious-ness living within your consciousness

So what the what?

"It seems that consciousness is the mechanism that collapses the wave function and brings the sub-atomic particle into being as opposed to just possible being there. These particles make up the objects we see around us: matter. It could be said , therefore , that consciousness creates matter."

What the fuck!?

So? our consciousness makes the subatomic particles that forms the basic of all basic atom possible?
Our conscious-self . collapse the wave function and makes the atom possible?
Our self-thought made the simplest of all particles the atom possible?

Confusing eh.

but heres the fascinating part!

So if our brains create matter.
Matter is there
not because its there
but because we think its there
like a placebo effect

So are we living within our own conscious?
interesting right?

Maybe we do exist as pure conscious-ness
Interacting with one another.

Matter like our computers and bmw.
They are just what our brain makes our of it. imagine attaining nirvana and waking up one day to find out that it was all fake. and you're just living in a world. all white pure white.
Of nothing-ness. and then what you have nothing. something becomes everything cause you've nothing. so whats the purpose of being?

The happy blog on the happy life of the happiest person alive

2009-01-19T08:48:00.000-08:00

Hi guys!

Welcome to my awesome new blog!

So what happened to the old one?
Well, i read through the old one and thought. WHAT THE FUCK?! this is too fucking cheesy.
And now its history. Locked up. in some random URL. ONLY ME MYSELF can view it.

!HA!

:D-

Welcome to my happy blog. and i'm the happiest person alive!