WHY?
I will really start living after i have a plan.
At the age of 20. i am ENLIGHTENED ahahahaha. YES
i mean seriously , what have i been doing? and what do i know about my life?
I've been living for 20 years, nono . Infact I've only been following a plan.
A plan that is set out by the very society i live in
I dont even exist at all.
I'm just an Ant in a trail of ants
i dont live
i dont exist
i am insignificant
i am one amongst the sea of many.
To me , to you am i just a relationship. AND that relationship is defined once again by our binding society. our society is my god. i am relative to you that is relative to a relationship defined by a culmulative , central power which is in otherwords the mean of our combined expectation. AKA SOCIETY. FUG MY LIFE.
You see , that is how sad my life was.
people buy sports cars, big houses .. WHY?
Do they actually think they can prove their existence with such *VALUABLE* possessions?
In a bigger picture, They dont.
They still do not exist , they're still one of the many.
It is just that , they've reached a new stage in the plan. The plan that binds everyone from birth.
The plan of our society.
every kid is born. With a plan
Every kid is born ,
to start walking
to start learning
to start schoolings
to start relationships
to start a career
to start a family
to start earning money
to start affording expensive items
and then, we're all well integrated into the plan.
then we start to grow old
we start to age
we start to fail, our memories and our bodies.
and fuck! i ask myself when do i start living?
living , not in the sense where we live our existence.
i wanna live my life, and what the fuck is my life?
I've been well into the plan that i forgot to see anything and everything beyond the binding plan of my life/society.
and then
at the end of the day, we're just part of a cycle.
An invisible plan that binds us all.
A plan where we play little to no-part at all. A plan that we're neither the M or the X or the C we play no part in affecting the Outcome (Y).
Then.. We just vanish
after 3 generations .
WHO IS NG.SHENG.NIAN?
OUR EXISTENCE ARE MEANINGLESS
IF
We're NOT the BEST
Human selection, Humans, reproduce
through the selection of the best
If we're not the best, our off springs will not be the best
And then . why do we exist?
I WANT TO BE THE BEST
I want to be above the plan and to be above the plan i have to have a plan
AND HENCE
I NEED A PLAN.
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
i love my crap
oh yea, i really am going to live after poly life.
You'll see.
i need to survive before i can live! YESSA!
