Goal.

Seems like, i'm luckily unlucky to have a dad like mine.
whose shoes are so big , that if i ever wanted to be seen as successful.
I'ld have to fill his shoes first.

The benchmark is pretty damn high .

Living up to expectations is not enough, but ... damn.
I cant see the expectations.

No matter how well i do, i'll still be ... as expected. Cause my dad is greater then the greats.
Hes got an interesting life story to boast. I don't.

I've got motivation. but i'm still a bum.
I'm nothing , more then his shadow.

Being nice.

Everyone wants to be nice.

but some of us tries too hard to be nice.

We think, how come some people.

Pulls of being-nice so easily?
Folks nation wide reveres him/her as the almighty nice one. everyone praises him/her for being nice.

but here you are , trying so hard to be nice.
being nice to whom you think are a bunch of ingrates. Taking your nice deeds for granted.

How fucking annoying is that?

Then...

Why are we TRYING to be nice?

Why do we find it hard to turn down requests from our friends?
Requests of NICE* deeds from you.

Do we genuinely want to help or do we help cause we find it hard to turn them down?

In otherwords,

Are you a nice person? Or are you asked to be a nice person?

(and you find it hard to turn down a chance for you to be who you want/ought to be)

Its annoying how we all preach that , if we're genuinely nice. We do it out of goodwill, we do not expect reciprocation.
And yet we curse and swear at those ingrates.

Why? because . we're nice cause we're asked to be.

Appreciation is vital. To us , is the basic hygiene of being nice.

but being nice, we're doing it for someother's benefits isnt it?

To all of us we tries to be nice, and be nice only when we're asked to be.
Its good that we try.
But dont allow one or two ingrates* to stop you from being nice to others who appreciate.
Because they are deserving.

And why do we TRY-ERs

expect so much?
Cause we TRY-ers , blow up every nice thing we do.
We think of it as a self-sacrificing deed, when being nice is to overlook oneself and work for the benefit of others.

we fail to be genuinely nice and that is to overlook oneself.


So lets all try to be nice, cause you want to.

22nd July

An unlikely NO.
Damn depressing.

Come on . let it be a YES.that is what i wish to hear, on JULY 22nd .

With regards to the thing i really really want.

come on man. help me pray for me.

Frog

Pictures of my frog.

You guys know that. my frog will be rid of the green.
going back to GREY. BORING GREY

Why?
It wll be given to my mom.
(my next ride will only come in september)

I miss my greeen coloured car

Credit princess Gabriella for the superb pictures

Inactivity.

Back and blogging.
Schools been shiet. very fucking boring. project works. gah.

Been awhile back, 2 months to be close to exact.
Thanks everyone for the 3x birthday surprise man!

12 midnight, candles by my carpark. FUCKING AWESOME MAN!
6-7pm the next day, people @ the JU-JU restaurant. THANKS MAN!
Later at night 10pm-12am - MORE PEOPLE at some random carpark behind.
DAMN NICE DAMN FAIRY-TALE. They lit the whole carpark with candles (a route with candles into the stairwell where i fed my pores cheesecake. haha . THANKS MAN!

FOLKS behind the surprise (THANKS MANY MANY)

hao

mun

bock

Sherwin

clement

terry

limin

weijin

Dudes who wished me happy birthday . SMS or MSN

suern

junjie

sujun

julius

alvin

waileong

tzetian

timwee

alicia

joe liu

meisheng

heng see meng(drift shifu)

alvin tham

justice

Jeremy Bmx

Theron

Gabriel Princess

Kwok siang

devon

how chun

Havi!

People who came for the surprises/event

hao

mun

bock

Sherwin

clement

terry

limin

weijin

Sujun

tzetian

Nigel

tuan jiaw

James

weiliang

Yiang hai

joe liu

waileong

ian

mitcher

darren

chiumun

hoihin

People who wished me on facebook

Raied

Joel Zee

Douglas

Walton

Gabriel - Drifter

Alvin tan - Drifter

Szuhui

Malcom Bs

Michelle BS

Stella BS!

NEATO

Thanks alot man. most eventful birthday ever

Self-worth

Importance , to the most important person in the world i'm unimportant as he is important to me for i'm unimportantImportance , to the most important person in the world i'm unimportant as he is important to me for i'm unimportant

So how do you intepret? - by 2.

she is important because i'm unimportant to her(her standpoint)

I'm unimportant in my own opinion therefore she is important to me.

Society moulds people not to sek self-fuilfilment but to seek acceptance.

The measure of importance of the people around you. General public's opinions are imporant to yuo for yuo are unimportant

Society moulds people not to seek self-fulfilment bu to seek acceptance.

The measure of importance of the people around you. General public opinions are important to you for you are unimportant.

Why do people around me conforms their priorities to the unimportant people aruond them . Unimportant to their future/well-being.

How can my cow , put herself before others, to understand the true importance of her important self and important health.

Motivation- Find a role model
Mental restructure - Priorities based on her interest and not expectation of others.

Most importantly, she has to understand her own importance in the society.

Cow ! Change for the better.

I can offer no more then mental reassurance. but that is if i'm of a significant importance.

Blogshop!

The best blog shop ever!

http://spreegalleria.livejournal.com/

VISIT NOW!

Comes complete with prompt customer service.
Excellent shop owner. unbelievably polite.

GOGOGO!

GET IT NOW!

My babies

Meet my babies.
The frog and the cow.

Sexiest part of my cow = the eyes.


Fucking pretty tail-lights

Skyline GT -500bhp (ok big numbers. but i dont dare to push em)

Pretty long car. i love the side profile

Look goooood fromt he back. Black rims will be much better

Yello!


Say hi to THEFROG

The WOOHOOs done

seemingly seemless

Oh man!
Say if i hadn't take the initiative to do anything.
There wouldn't be anything done at all.

We'll all just wait, cause the sheeps needs to be herded.

and its always me being the dog.


So when will the mammals call?*(me first)




hahaha . anyways.
"God be thanked, the meanest of his creatures......"




Do i be bothered about not being bothered
Or bothered about being bothered about not being bothered
Or bothered about not being bothered about not seeming bothered when bothered




Pitfalls of happiness.(mine)
To think inadequately at all times, instead of thinking adequately at times.





Heres a super fucking awesome poem by walt whitman(a repost in my blog)


I think I could turn and live with animals,
they are so placid and self-contained,
I stand and look at them long and long.
They do not sweat and whine about their condition,
They do not lie awake in the dark and weep for their sins,
They do not make me sick discussing their duty to god,
Not one is dissatisfied, not one is demented with the mania of owning things,
Not one kneels to another, nor to its kind that lived thousands of years ago,
Not one is respectable or unhappy over the whole earth.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hxcjTaTXJcI

i miss shanghai!

Wooo hoooooo!!

China!
Pretty fuckkkkjiinnnggg aweessoommeee....

One of the MOREexcitingTWOweeks of my Super deeee duper EXCITING LIFE!!


hahhaha

This trip = SUPER FUCKKINGG IMPROMPTU MAN!
Got the tickets on friday
Off i go on monday!!

Made some fast reservations online @ hotels.com

Fucking neat .


It was a super long trip.

So lemme cut the crap.

Blog on the more interesting happenings
AND let the pictures do the rest of the talking


Day 1 : We arrived at midnight. All forms of transport (apart from the Rip off cabs , ceased operations)
Gabriel almost got us scammed , he asked for directions . Some sly looking china man came , took his paper. and offered to ferry us and gabriel followed.

GABRA!

Hell , i took the paper back from the unwilling- to - return - sly - looking china man.

Went to a nearby 1 night stay hotel
(Really shitty shit enviroment. disGARSting.)


Fucking lucky trip

Day 2 : Took public transport towards our hostel.
FUCKING LONG FUCKING TIRING.
2bags and a bike in another big bag.

Setting up the bikes

Hell man.

Bumped into local riders.

LUCKY OR NOT. Our hostel is 2 streets away from the ONLY bmx shop in CHINA!

Virgin manual in shanghai

We bumped into the owner.
Exchanged contacts.
He hooked us up with local riders. Who then brought us to Shop for cheaps tees, to be used for riding.

Riding along!

I met my cow (limin) there as well.

Then we went to sight see afters

ZOMG!

unglam cow

DAY 3

First day of SMP. fucking exciting. Ramps were huge , ginormous. BIG AS FUCK!
Fucking fun!

Called up the local riders.
Arranged for a street ride at night.

BUMPED INTO MORE RIDERS!



AH DAMN LONG LA.

Bloody fuckking long post. lets keep it short.
heres the highlights

We hung out with the local riders.

We had BBQ at the backyard of one of the riders.
We went to shop,eat

Played with fire crackers.
Zhao cab


Shot locals with gabriels slingshot (using ball bearings)
Almost got into a brawl with locals

Go karts.
Went to ikea / Zoo with my cow.


And now, pictures talk

Tailwhip!
AGAIN

MAN! EXCITING!

Shanghai = Colourful! + They've got MALLS EVERYWHERE!

Random picture. Hello dustbin!

How often do i take pictures?
heres a picture with my cow. Cow says - my smile like natural sia. i like young like 16.(like only)


Good picture, Why? cause i look taller.

See i act cute sia. (my ass, more like i'm covering my mouth - then princess had to take a shot)

Fireworks! That canister over there is knee height, the explosion is well over 2 metres tall man!

Somebody is very cute WORXZ.

And this guy, is alot cuter. Somehow

Check out that random lady's expression

getting home

Ah ! Shanghai! PRETTY! - and colourful

MY ASS, A TOP TEH SMP BOWL~!

Got my picture draw, original drawing with naomi

Its GINORMOUS!

With some of the riders we met, we rode with a lot more at night. pretty coooool crew

We lay wasted atop the vert ramps
THE SHEER SIZE OF THE BOWL, COMPARE ME TO THE BOWL
What?
Wah lau , see i wear slim fit jeans man . so not nianish
The road towards SMP. (a short cut actually) to get to this road
we had to cross a platform. 25 cm wide, 3 metres long.
The platform, laid over a dead river.
Fucking smelly man. Best of all , the dead river was right beside a fish market.
Shit was thrown there everyday,
Makes the long ride there alittle more interesting huh

To think without thinking

Man, i've gotta start thinking about how important life is.

Guilt ridden,
I nearly caused the death of my family ( in a heavier tone)

Quarrelled with my mother over minor issues.
Which caused my dad to be angry.

And he fainted while driving....



God damnit.
If anything happened. Its all my fucking fault
but thank god.
hes alright....


I'm 19, to think. i'm far from mature.
To put myself in his position.
All the responsibilities i have to carry.
My fat/stubby shoulders are unable to uphold.



I've to think before i allow my imbecile side to fuss.
cannot man.


Let me restructure my priorities.
I'm never the utmost important.


Cause .. I dont have the rights to get angry.








To think without thinking.
Blink.


How is it possible that, i can be so irresponsible?

I've been driving recklessly.
letting my ego take the better of me.

To be responsible for others,
If i fuck up and die.
My dad will probably be so upset and die.


How will my little sister feel?



How can i get so annoyed by ah beng evos who box me
And speed with them?


Annoying thing is.
I've got 5 other friends in my car.


I cant toy with their lives.
i dont have the rights to.



Drive safe.

And with the advent of a new ride.
My skyline.

I'll only learn in GP.



Thanks..

WELCOME BACK!

THE FROG IS BACK!
SEXY CUSTOM BUMPER. ONE AND ONLY IN SG(ANYWHERE ELSE IN THE PLANET)

LUMMA KIT SEXY. GAPING MOUTH. GRUNTING LIKE A BIG FAT TOAD I MEAN FROG!

WOOO. FUCK OF FLIES

THE FROG IS BACK!

THE FROG!!!!

Awesome

YARGGHH!! MY CAR IS BACK ITS BACK ITS BACK ITS BACK!!!!!




HAHAHAHAHA YESS!!! i'll upload the pics next time.
FUCKING SEXY!

I LOVE MY NEW RIDE




AND I'M GOING TO CHINA!

Fucked up

Somehow it feels like its all going wrong
ONCE AGAIN.

i must not lose again

I dont know why, but wheres the enthusiasm and excitement?
Going going fading . gone

Details

Being happy,
I was contented.

I had a picture.
Really really nice picture.

i'm just pure happy. i'm happy with the frame , i should be happy with the details. that is my assumption.

Learn to be observant
So i can be very sincere.
I'm happy with the picture.
but do i know how to appreciate that picture?

Being happy, being contented.
I fail to notice the details
That makes that picture nice.


Because i'm already contented.


Take the initiative to observe the details.
Examine the fine points.
Then i can fully appreciate the picture





I dont preach reductionism cause i'm not a biologist/ mechanic . but i can practise so i can appreciate.

i wanna learn how to be observant.
Then i can understand.
and demostrate sincerity



So i can know the picture. more then i know its frame.

When hygiene needs is your only source of motivation.

Give -
Recieve -

Be deprived of the latter and lack mental assurance.
Assurance, whereby action is the foundation.

Talking dreams, chasing clouds.
I dont want to be at the losing end.

So lets be abit selfish.
cause you cannot really be sure can you?

Progression

HA! look at me man!!! what the fuck!!!

I 'm pretty sure i'm 14 in that picture but i look like i'm fucking 10!
Some even said i look like eight!
HA! others came up to me and said , HEY I SPOT YOUR RV UNIFORM(RV = my primary school)

WHATTTTTTT! INCASE YOU CANT IDENTIFY ME!. I;m on the bottom left corner. on the floor by the teacher's feet

AND IN 1 YEARS TIME. i look so fucking different!
Must be puberty! hahahahaha check top left. 

HAHAHAHA